i can't take it anymore.

i'm fighting to keep my irritation to the min. with naruto.. and i had such high hopes for ep. 60 (i won't say series because the zabuza arc still rocks big time).. as if agonising through 2 episodes of terrible fillers wasn't enough, they just had to insert a 2 min (i actually timed it, because i was sooo bored) staring contest between neji and naruto, which utterly killed the episode for me..

for a 20 min episode, minus the opening and ending songs, the real oh-this-is-getting-exciting action took all of 6? 8? mins?

arrrrgggghh and i thought the pace would pick up once the final matches started.. big sigh .. excuse a very disappointed fan..

but then, on the other hand, anything that involves neji rocks, so while trying my best to ignore naruto (who is unfortunately really starting to annoy me.. like i told my friend and sister, i liked the earlier "dumb" wayyy better), i will grin and bear it for another 7 days..

computer troubles are the worst things on earth.. after an entire night of wrangling, cursing, swearing, threatening coupled with the stubborness of refusing to give up, i've never been so glad to be online..

the satisfaction i get from "beating" microsoft is sweet.. sweet sweet victory

i have never had my heart pound so fast when watching a tv show.. neither have i ever rooted for someone soo much.

sometimes i think it is very hard to differentiate between infatuation and love, but being comfortable with someone, feeling like you can let your guard down totally and be yourself and at ease with someone is unmentionably important..

i'm glad for once my gut feeling played out right, and andrew picked jen. perhaps it was the bf thing that killed it with kirsten cough, but like i have maintained throughout the series, if 24 girls can all dislike one girl, that says a lot.

girls are bitchy.. i know. i'm female myself.. but there are times when jealousy and inferiority ( looks wise, smarts wise..) aside, girls just know who's nice and who's not, who's got substance and who just doesn't.. and i'm afraid, i agree with their judgement.

i know you can never take anything on television at face value. shots can be edited to show the juiciest, bitchiest segments, but editing aside, you can just tell, from what someone says, how someone reacts. it's one thing to be outspoken, it's another to be plain right mean and bitchy..

i thought the one who took andrew's rejection the best was tina fabulous. for a 22 year old, i'm in awe of her elegance, her bearing, her maturity and character..

but who likes rejection. no one, and i was actually beginning to feel sorry for kirsten till she said that imaging andrew proposing to jen made her sick.. that i think, speaks for itself..

all said and done, it was a fairytale ending to what i think will be a very strong couple, just like the bachelorette's trista and ryan. i'm so glad, so happy for both couples.

my only regret is, my special he wasn't sitting beside me to cuddle with when andrew proposed. fairytales do and have happened. i'm just glad i've never had to share mine with another girl, be it from the beginning or the middle or the end.. i'm speechlessly grateful for him..

baby, i love you..