finally met up with the last person i really needed to see and talk to.

it's cliche, but i am determined to live better, laugh harder, love stronger and stay in touch with friends regularly. like the fallible, complacent human beings we are, it's unfortunate it has to take something drastic and serious to shake us up. but as long as we learn..

phuket was good because it broke my moody train of thought. it offered me a break, a chance to get away, an opportunity to rest and to stop thinking, stop analysing, stop trying to understand..

we will never forget, we will always remember her, but at least from now on, it's time to look forward, to those around us and embrace life.

what i'll miss the most -- having something to come home to, who makes me smile, who makes me laugh and who melts all the worries of the world away..

today was quite an adventurous day at the airport. over-booked flights in the name of business are definitely NOT good, but what to do? that was also possibly the fastest goodbye ever said. a quick wave of the hand, a hurried "bye" and poof! he was through customs and gone. haha.. we were singularly amused. at least the novelty of it all helped starve off any teary, achey holey feelings i was afraid of having. in fact, i was still buzzing with excitement in the car on the way back.

then again, i was dreading getting back to an empty room. a room filled to every nook and corner with memories of not just the past 3 months but the past 7 years. and each time he comes back, the rooms fills up with more and more memories. an EXTREMELY clean room now, but also a little empty, a little lonely and a little sad.

well, hopefully he made his connecting flight and is safely on his way to SanFran, and we'll get a call sometime around noon tm.

if you see this, mata ne.. =]

"And being apart ain’t easy On this love affair Two strangers learn to fall in love again I get the joy Of rediscovering you.."

• Faithfully, Journey

i'm glad you were back for the whole summer. i'm glad we had this chance to right things and get back on track.

you're still here (for just one more day), but i feel i'm already saying my goodbyes.. if only to prepare myself for the real thing. when will i see you again?