"Sometimes we make it harder than it is We'll take a perfect night And fill it up with words we don't mean Dark sides best unseen And we wonder why we're feeling this way.

Sometimes I wonder if we really feel the same Why we can be unkind..."

• Amy Grant That's What Love Is For

i just had to torture myself. blame the curious cat in me. looking over old old old old entries (gosh! have i really been blogging on antville since 2002??!!! where does time fly so fast?) was not a good idea.

it's like looking over an old essay, in the reverse. once, you thought it was brilliant. now, it reads like crap and you wonder, how could i have been proud of such drivel!

in this case. i read old entries and wonder why ain't i blogging like i used to. the grass seems greener in older pastures, huh. argh. ignore me. i'm just ranting..