it's difficult sometimes when you're both happy and sad at the same time...
i don't want to dwell too much on it, but the bali bomb blast.. that really sucks.. so close to home, it's too near for comfort... and like the papers said today: paradise has been lost...
also, 4 of the 7 missing are still unaccounted for.. these many hours on... the worst is probably the only option left... and what's even more heart-rending is all of these 7 were expats playing for us... most were british...
i refused to read the coverage (which took up 80% of the main section) ... it's too depressing... but i've seen pictures of the site.. my god it looks like war.. the entire area totally levelled...
sometimes you wish you could block out these events and to a certain extent life hasn't really changed for me in the sense that i'm no more fearful when i go out , take the bus, go shopping, than i was 2yrs, 1yr ago... and sometimes i feel guilty for that sense of security!
guilty ... because i'm safe, and others are not; secure while others live in fear...
hypocritical ... because i'm happy, and contented while others have only war, hunger, thirst, pain to contend with...
so i won't write about my happiness now... no, the rest of today will be left for reflection, thought and soberity...
On this long storm the rainbow rose,
On this late morn the sun;
The clouds, like listless elephants,
Horizons straggled down.
The birds rose smiling in their nests,
The gales indeed were done;
Alas! how heedless were the eyes
On whom the summer shone!
The quiet nonchalance of death
No daybreak can bestir;
The slow archangel’s syllables
Must awaken her.
major major disaster.. just found out today that brit essay is due ONE WK EARLIER than expected!!!! arrrrggghh... panic
it's amazing isn't it? how life can turn for the worst suddenly after an entire wk of happiness? sigh
and as if to confirm my mood.. it looks like it's gonna rain like hell.. and i absolutely hate going out when it's raining...
can't wait for sat (19/10) now.. watching some cuban jazz thingy with my german class at the esplanade whoohoo =) (stupid debate abt the correct pronounciation shakes head) ... always kinda fun to dress up a leetle yes? whip out the skirts!!! and whatever.. hee =) it shld be fun =)
goodie feel happier now already.. one thing at a time i guess.. die you slacker-bug!!