the fees and I are starting a competition to see who's gonna be more consistent at doing our 20 pushups a day!!

hehe... towards a more toned and muscled both of us! =)

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yeah well..he's way ahead at the moment. i currently stand guilty at 0 =/ hahah..

and wow! look! an entry! from the dormant other half of d.f.c.t grin teehehehe..

today the 18th will be the first day since dec 28th that i won't be seeing him..

hard to imagine i actually did see him every single day since then.. ok not every single day. there was at least one day i didn't see him, and that was entirely due to my fault that i sort of picked a quarrel =/

you'll think, with such a short time together and after a 4mth hiatus i would be all cheery and hyper, beaming rays of sunshine huh? well apparently not but that blew over fast enough.. thankfully..

..but i'd rather have him here to quarrel with than not to have him here at all.. sigh ah well.. only 4mths, only 4mths..

in other news: i actually finished up Mammon Inc, just, within the past 5hrs during which i was suppose to have gone to sleep.

pple read before bedtime to either lull themselves to sleep or just to indulge in a little light relaxation before sleep. me, i read and i never go to sleep. there's no fun in stopping halfway! =] unless you happen to be reading Middlemarch or something =]

anyway just a note, Mammon Inc is brilliant. like Hwee Hwee Tan quoted from 1984 "the best books are..those that tell you what you know already."

perhaps it was due to the numbness of a severe lack of sleep that the 2nd goodbye was tearless.. perhaps it was due to expectation and anticipation (you always imagine worse than it actually is don't u?).. perhaps it was routine? 'here we go again..'

.. or perhaps it is because we know that we'll survive. we survived the first 4mths, we'll survive this next 4. after all.. plans have already been made - he'll be back for the summer break. and i'll be going over during winter break.

these 2 1/2 wks have been such a blur of seeing him everyday.. of never being at home, of hardly sleeping in my bed. it's amazing how you can't get enough of a person even after 4yrs no? =]

anyway now i've to catch up with school.. back to reality, back to work, back to waiting for 4mths to blitz by through not thinking too much and concentrating enough to pass this sem decently =]

he is fine, he'll be fine.. so will i.. for now, hopefully he's asleep, flying high over blue seas and under blue skies..

see you soon liebling..