there are certain songs that fill my heart with such an indescribable sentation that i feel lifted, purified, empowered and inspired.. so full that i fear i would burst from the intensity of it all..

it is at moments like that when i feel the most inspired to write. to capture the soul of the moment, to create something of beauty..

it's the same feeling i get when i watch anime or play japanese rpgs.. for all their culture's outward reticence, within and behind these fantasy worlds, i see deep burning passion. a passion so intense that it moves me to tears and leaves me in stunned awe, humbled at the brilliance of it all, moving softly round the house in a haze of silence, for words are not enough..

they are but simple themes of love, friendship, loyalty and yet woven in such an intricate web of truth and haunting beauty that it goes straight to my heart and i ache... i ache inside, hollowly, deep in the center of my being for hours, for days, for weeks.. because it is but a story, a tale, a world conjured in the mind.. not real..

my teacher once said that a truly great work is one which engenders cartharsis.. in the moment you feel something is greatness accomplished..

"But my words like silent raindrops fell, And echoed In the wells of silence.."

i'm ashamed i jump a little when someone in the bus coughs or sniffles.. i'm ashamed i'm so suspicious of strangers when i've never bothered or thought twice of them before..

i'm sad i've disappointed friends, i'm regretful i've to give up something i've been waiting for.. i'm upset that plans have to be changed due to circumstances beyond anyone's control..

but my duty first and foremost to all who love me is to stay safe.

and if i have to give up the trip, so be it...

the magic of inspiration that comes from reading others' words is nothing short of a miracle.

not that it's obviously helping essay-writing, but i sense the re-awakening glimmer of hope somewhere within.