i retract all i've ever said abt the 21st bday being just another birthday... it isn't and therein lies all the difference in the world...
it wasn't the number of pple who remembered and wished me a happy birthday!!!! , exclaimation marks galore, but it was the thought behind ... even to those who forgot it doesn't matter to me... firstly everyone's really busy now.. assignments and what not due these 3 wks... secondly, it really just doesn't matter...
my worth to pple is not measured in how many remember my bday cos i know my friends love me as i am whether it is my bday or not...
but for those who did: thank you =)
anyway i digress. why was this bday so special, not like any other? i think it all boiled down to my family... immediate and extended... they thought today was special, and so today became special... they thought i was special so i was special...
for all the quarrels and screaming and crying and even hate and anger in the past... family is family and they love me... and i love them, probably more than any other 3 pple in the world... words fail me right now, so i'll leave you with a few words my mum wrote (that left me bawly and sniffy):
"having you is the best gift I have ever had... (though) i never stop to praise you,.. i have always been proud of you for you have a good heart, a strong sense of justice, sensible.. capable.. brave... today, daddy and mummy pass you the key; unlock it and open a new parth for yourself -- don't forget us when you encounter difficulties along the way. keep focused and live ach day to the fullest, so that one day when you look back, you are satisfied! remember, be humble..."