smidgen of [eternity]

a thought struck me today while walking to the f.parlor -- the heavy weight of duty the living pays to the dead...

do we pay our respects to death - ie. dearth of life, or to the life that has passed...

i prefer the latter.. and that's why i went today, even though i know the girl only in passing, through my sister... i just wanted to pay my respects...

also, perhaps i was drawn by a memory... a memory named Anna... memories of crying my eyes and heart out, on the grass verge, alone...

maybe it's time i go back to see her..

it's strange that death comes in a drove... scrubs tonight was all abt death -- a senior doctor told the new fresh-out-of-med-sch docs that "1 in 3 patients who come into this hospital die" ... and today in the season's 3rd episode, all 3 of them had their 3rd patient die...

for some it was just time to go ("I think i am ready to die"), for some youth just ran out on them, and for others it was just their time... but though it was tough for them to handle their first death, each came away with something...

... my friend's father passed away this morning... aggressive cancer... there's a funeral in the void deck of my neighbouring block, there's another a few blocks down.. and yet another at a clementi block i pass by everyday on my way home from uni...

like i said before... death seems to come in droves.. always... perhaps it's so when souls pass on, they won't be lonley because they do so together...

i don't know and i will never know... but one thing i do know is life is lived in the shadow of death... there's nothing we can do to change it, or stop it... except to live each day to the fullest ...

carpe diem

You say I took the name in vain I don't even know the name But if I did, well really, what's it to you? There's a blaze of light In every word It doesn't matter which you heard The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you And even though It all went wrong I'll stand before the Lord of Song With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah

(taken from an excerpt of the song Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen -- some of you might recognise it.. it was on the Shreck soundtrack)