methinks.. i might have 're-found' my voice after all. the mouse has woken hear her roar.. ok ok i just wanted to write that. it's a fun line to write..
yes, perhaps my muse has woken again. i feel she has. for how long, i cannot say. however, one thing for sure is this is a new incarnation. she's different. do i dare let her loose on the poor unsuspecting world? dare i lift the acid veil? we'll see about that..
..would pple still recognise me?
i feel i found a certain sort of freedom tonight. an expansion of the soul, a deep-seated, right-to-the-bone sort of freedom of words.
sometimes, there is only one way of saying things - as they are. no mincing, no correcting, no hiding, no being politically correct.. why try to be goody-two-shoesie nice when what you really feel like is slapping the other person? why agree when you don't?
but that doesn't mean you'll all get to see it here anytime soon. i'm still not sure, after all this time, how much of a real window this site'll be to the real me.
but.. and there are always more buts, i think more pple in real life are starting to see who i think and feel is the real me.. though i don't know if that's a good or bad thing. i scare myself sometimes..
perhaps as i grow older and become more rooted in my self, the who of me, i realise that it's tiring not being me.
perhaps i've reached a stage where, with all the confidence of irreverance i can say, "if you like me, you do. if you don't. who cares." and so, if you don't like what i say, how i say it, feel free to ignore me.
yes. it is a certain freedom of words i've found tonight.